| I would like to tell you something that happened this morning.
As I woke up this morning and I entered the living room, I found a mess, my youngest daughter had to look for newspaper articles on poverty for school yesterday evening and she had managed to cover almost the complete living room with newspapers.
It was 5.45am and I had to prepare breakfast, make coffee, clean up the kitchen, ... and I felt the anger coming up for her not having cleaned up before going to bed.
Since I am a calm person who does not at all like the feelings of anger, a few years ago I would have suppressed these feelings of anger and started blaming internally my children and husband for not doing the effort of helping me.
But not this morning, I felt that old thought pattern coming up, blaming my kids for not helping me, but all of a sudden I asked myself: are you really going to take that run again, Barbara? Really?
And then I thought: what could I change now that would be more helpful?
I started enjoying my fury, feeling the anger and the passion and let it out. I cleaned the house up like a tornado. And it made me feeling SO POWERFUL. Letting this sudden fury out made me so much more complete and I enjoyed it like watching a big sea storm from a distance.
And now a few hours after my fury, it is all gone, vanished because I let it out. So, this was a major change in perspective, watching my feelings, enjoying the energy of the feelings without being caught up by them.
Our whole life is an experience in consciousness, an experience of life as a colorful tapestry. Once you see that the white AND the black, the yellow AND the green, ... are part of it, you embrace the whole.
It is WE who decide whether we prefer the black or the white of the tapestry. The tapestry itself doesn't care. Our universe doesn't care whether you prefer the storm of life or the calm sea. As long as you resist the sea, you will remain unhappy.
But the day you decide to adjust your sails to the direction of the wind, your life, your happiness, your success becomes effortless.
So back to this morning, I took the kids in a happy mood to school because I had noticed all these changes inside myself and was very conscious of the fact that the morning could have turned in a different way...
I wrote the whole scene down in my purple book to be very conscious of the whole change in thought pattern that happened. Making notes for yourself is very powerful, it is something I started long time ago, and it is one of the wonderful things that Andy Shaw explains in his program, A Bug Free Mind. He has a way of explaining in very simple terms the complexity of your conscious and unconscious mind, how to make REAL changes that have an profound impact on your life.
Below I posted two pictures, one of my copy of A Bug Free Mind and another one of the notes I took this morning in my purple book :) | 
