I have a high tolerance for assholes. It took me a pandemic to realize it, but now I know I’m an asshole too. I suppose delayed recognition isn’t surprising. I justified my asshole behavior as being honest or having good boundaries. It’s because I'm psychic and know stuff others don’t, right? Or because I am healthily skeptical.
Once it really hit me, I laughed so hard it brought tears to my eyes. And I’m still laughing at my inner asshole as I write.
Recently I had a session with a medical intuitive. During the call I found myself bluntly expressing my disagreement with some of the beliefs that she stated. I felt so stubborn and certain. I even said “I’m not trying to be an asshole, but I don’t agree.”
For a couple days I found myself thinking my asshole thoughts, holding on to my stubborn beliefs. Then it hit me, “Seriously Natalie, you're being an asshole. You do this for a living so you are being arrogant, close minded and self-justifying. Stop it!”
Then I started laughing. What a relief to "own" my inner asshole.
It seems the craziness in the world has brought out a lot of our inner assholes. Judgments, certainty we know truth and other people are wrong or just stupid. Less of a filter. Especially for empaths who...
