For a long time, I dreaded Sundays.

I used to feel this heaviness in my chest.

I wanted to distract myself from watching mindless TV or series (I guess there wasn't Netflix) but somehow I couldn't forget what was going to happen tomorrow. I needed to go to work.

And at work, I wanted to be a ghost. I did not want anyone to ask me anything.

I had decided that this place was not for me. I was going to leave.

But I needed to for some more time because I did not know what else I could do next.

It was a very difficult time.

I had left in my mind and heart but stayed with my body.

I could not wait until I moved my body out of there too.

Looking back, I see something I did not consider at all that could change my experience.

I settled my camp in the firm decision to escape which left the other option out of my sight.

I am talking about this other option in this week's episode.