Once it was recorded, off it went to the sound engineer to be cleaned up and organised into chapters and sound files and then finally, finally, with great excitement, I submitted it to Audible, intending to have it ready for you on my website and various other outlets within weeks.
I trumpeted my news on Instagram and Facebook. People were excited to get it…
BUT
But
Big fat butt!
I couldn’t make it available on the platforms!
Despite all my efforts, my website wasn’t ready, Audible took MONTHS, I’m not joking, to get back to me to say there was a technical error and then I fixed that and resubmitted it and MONTHS more passed. I thought I might explode with frustration.
You know, when things don’t go the way you planned...
when the wind is taken out of your sails...
when you are ready to go but your car dies...
when your child suddenly needs the toilet and you miss the quiet gap in traffic…
when you plan something so carefully and it means a lot to you and then the whole thing falls apart…
It’s tempting to lose hope and give up.
It's tempting to get angry and frustrated and complain bitterly and believe that maybe you just can’t do it.
That life will never be what you want it to be.
That it’s unrealistic for you to follow your dreams.
That you shouldn’t hope for things to get better…
BUT
That moment of frustration and fear and pain is a HUGE opportunity.
It’s a moment of choice.
And choices are the building blocks of your life.
Each choice you make leads to the next experience you have and the next choices you face.
So after muttering and grumbling about having gotten everything ready only to have to wait, after feeling completely frustrated and powerless to make things the way I wanted them, I realised I was facing a choice and I asked myself the Love Question.
“If I loved myself, what would I choose to say to myself about this now?”
Well, it was immediately obvious to me that pushing harder and tantruming were only making me feel worse. And they weren’t shifting anything anyway…
And my answer came.
“If I loved myself, I would take a deep breath and let go of trying to control it and just wait and trust and see what happens.”
And nothing dramatic happened. Nothing was immediately resolved externally
BUT
But
Big fat but,
I immediately felt release inside me. I calmed. My body tension eased and I spontaneously took a deep relaxing breath.
I had lovingly stepped in to hold my hand and be with me in this trying moment and it felt good to have myself with me.
Asking the Love Question brings you home to yourself again and again.
And the answer will always be unique to you and the moment you are in.
So I calmed, and waited and now, finally, finally, my audiobook is available.
You can find it and a free sample on my website, on Audible, on Kobo and most other platforms.
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