Yet I was still picking the types that merely portrayed themselves as emotionally evolved; at best, it was superficial or materialistic in some way, with a "give to get" mentality only when I did things according to their expectations. And, if they didn't feel appreciated enough, they'd become withholding, triggering my co-dependency through emotional manipulation, trying to convince me there was something wrong with me.

By the time I was 33, I was so emotionally shut off, defensive, and non-committal that I was creating a new mistake, a slight variance of mistake number 1. However, I was neglecting my own divine feminine needs for emotional intimacy, vulnerability, and sweetness. Because I didn't want to be hurt again, I left out the best parts of myself to void the past relationship experiences. Mistake #2

I became a serial dater with no attachment, connection, or love. I thought it was the best way to give myself permission to be in control of my heart for fear I would be misused and treated; never again would I love in a big way, give myself to another, adorn them, cater to them, and serve them, including my sensual appetite. I would give less, treat them like disposal waste and keep it pushing. But, those things about me are essential to being me! I was still getting hurt, but this time I was doing it to myself.

It was a complete disaster. This 3 years cycle of attracting vibrational, unsound situations that didn't match my heart's deepest desire left me feeling frustrated and disconnected from what is authentically me by sacred design. By this time, I was 36 years old. Needless to say, I was running on empty and becoming disenchanted by the dating pool. Has this ever happened to you? Wondering if you'll ever find "the one." So, I stopped dating for almost 2 years, and that's when I made mistake number 3. 

By the age of 38, I was so guarded and overly cautious. It was like being in relationship survival mode. I was depleted and starved by my own decision to give less, which led me to make to mistake number 3. Feeling lonely, empty, and unseen, I returned to the same pattern, only this time, it was worse. I should have seen the red flags from the first date. 

He was sweet, funny, and endearing while simultaneously dismissive and detached. This bait reeled me in, triggering me to set out to prove my worth immediately. I was hooked and didn't discern it. His Machiavellian influence over me was a thin veil, convincing me to impress him at every turn, doing everything opposite of what I had healed. This was relationship hell.

It wasn't until later that I realized I was letting him make all the decisions, in essence, running my life, including the type of woman I should be to become the wife he desired. I'd lost all sense of who I was. Despite the years of quietly listening to all I could comprehend from the Divine guidance to heal, I still surrendered to his complete authority. He disliked my friendships. So, I stopped hanging out with them. He didn't like the clothes I wore. Even being kind to strangers was an issue. He claimed I was flirting with everyone. So, I became a hostage in my relationship. Everything was a battle, a fight, a drama, an issue. But, it was me who believed being all of me meant I had to accept less. Until I didn't. 

It was clear that something was missing, so I poured my heart out before the Creator. The instructions were choppy at best, but I implemented the activation of my sacred feminine code. That's when I encountered the divine assignment that changed my life another six years later, allowing me to experience the full awakening of my divine feminine influence. It was awe-inspiring. It was the first-time I had fallen in love with myself and someone else at the same time.

Watch for my next email, where I'll share with you the juicy details!

I encourage you not to make the same mistakes I made. Doing it alone was a trial-and-error journey of disappointment and heartbreak. 

I tried my hardest to understand what emotional stories and belief systems were causing emotional injury to my self-confidence and worth. So, it took me some time to formulate the wisdom and knowledge I share with you now so that you don't have to wait to transform your life path. Let me share these ancient secrets on actualizing love, intimacy, and money in the divine feminine way. You won't have to wait decades; your new life path begins now!

Here are a few ways to begin, with me as your trusted guide, click the links for details:

#1 End Toxic Living Group Immersion starts June 2, 2024

#2 Divine Feminine Full Moon Release Live In-person May 23rd @ 7pm - 9pm

#3 Access Your Divine Feminine Influence with: Love, Intimacy & Money: Feminine Code - 2 Hr Live Streaming Immersion May 25 @ 11am - 1pm

#4 Sacred Feminine Healing through Motion: Surrender & Manifestation Live in person May 26th, @ 9:30am-12pm

And here's an option because you may want to do them all! But feel free to RSVP with what resonates with you. 

But there's no better way to start a new beginning than to go all in and go hard for the energy shift you need to move the stubborn obstacles and replace them with your actualized dreams and desires. Click the links above for details on each event. Or get them all and make three payments of $128 per month. Your payment includes:

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