Subject: When DARKNESS returns… do this Friend!

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hi Friend

How's your heart? your stomach? your feet?

It's ok to take a few deep breaths to check in with yourself.


When the darkness returns -

but this time it's different.



If the darkness feels like it has swallowed you whole,

Or has swallowed a big chunk of you and left you feeling limbless, empty in the dark. 

And you’re wondering -

why did you leave a part of me behind?


Why didn’t you just take the rest of me with you?

I don’t think I want to be here anymore!

What’s left for me here??

Where do I go from here?
And where did you go??


OK. Let’s take a breath.

A big inhale, and a long, slow exhale.

These questions are valid. 

First let’s first backtrack a little..


Remember when you started to feel good, you were manifesting good experiences with ease, life felt rewarding and exciting - you were moving towards something and you wanted to feel as high vibe as possible??



Remember when - in order to feel as high vibe as possible - you set the intention to let go the darkness and all the limitations from your past holding you back?

Remember?

Remember, you set the intention to let of all your darkness.


Well, you’re pretty darn, miraculous -

 you let go of all your darkness. 


BUT how could I let it go and still feel stuck, smothered in darkness?

This darkness is different. 

This darkness is slightly MORE UNCOMFORTABLE.

Because it’s not your regular old darkness that you used to know - this darkness is -


 the uncomfort, the uncertainty, the unknown you’re feeling without all the (darkness) you let go of. 


This uncomfortable new darkness is the space in between

and it sucks.

I didn't say it didn't suck.

What I am saying is that you are NOT back to where you started or you are not worse than before.


You are grieving the darkness that’s gone.

I know that sounds crazy too,

but we are human, we grieve loss.


That’s why it feels like a part of you left

And a part of you is still here. 


That darkness has left.

And your soul doesn't want you to go after it.

Your soul wants you to give yourself
some time to readjust,

to fill in the colours of who you are NOW.


Who are you without the darkness?



Have you ever bought a lego box - and there’s this epic picture on the outside that seizes your imagination and you can feel yourself living the experience of the creation? 


Well this is what's happening - it's as if you bought a lego box and expected to INSTANTLY open it and it would be a finished solid experience and look like it did on the box... right?


BUT when you opened it, you realise - the creation must be built - the creation is a sum total of however you want to make up all the tiny little pieces. 


You’ve got to build your new vision, piece by piece. 


And first, you had to release the darkness to create a rich, deep, stable foundation. You're doing everything right.


The deepest roots grow in the darkest soil.



You are immensely powerful.

Now, there’s only one thing to do. 

-> to mediate on the question with yourself 

“Who is this?”

“Who am I now?”


If you would like to extend your meditation 

With a visualisation:


Imagine a ring of protection ( a caim in old Celtic Irish) 

Around you

And in this gap (darkness) you feel,

fill it with light,

And then fill your body with light,

And then, from your body, full of white light, 

Have the white light overspill into the gap,

Until you become the gap,

Until you become shimmering white light - wholesomely contained as light within your caim (ring of protection). 

Breathe into the ease here,

Breathe into the lightness here. 


Return to this light meditation

every time you feel the discomfort of the unknown creeping in or consuming you.


Now you can start creating new behaviours and new thoughts 

from this place of WHO YOU ARE NOW. 


And it can happen naturally - 

When you keep repeating - 

“Who is this?”

“Who am I now?”

“What do I feel inspired to do now?”


If you’re in need of some emotional support to resolve the darkness… watch your emails this week.

Because emotions happen… I am dropping NEW FORMULATIONS for emotional support. 

Keep a peep on inbox - and remember the light meditation and the questions: 

“Who is this?”

“Who am I now?”

“What do I feel inspired to do now?”



You've got this!!


There’s only one question left to ask:

What’s the BEST that can happen?


Sending love,

Heidi


H E I D I L I D H O L M

love life, live love,

devotion in motion

to your authentic wellness.



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