Back on the mat, my thoughts spiralled...
So if I'm suffering,
and I don't want to cause anyone else to suffer...
then, am I am holding someone accountable (blaming 😬) for my suffering?
Oops, maybe... kinda... yes.
Unconsciously, yes.
Definitely, unconsciously, yes.
But now it had become conscious.
And as I have said before, the truth reorients and protects.
If I don't want another to think I am suffering because of them...
If I'm suffering because of something I feel about them...
If I'm suffering because I have no control over the situation and I feel totally hopeless...
If I don't want to blame another for my suffering...
If I don't want my actions to cause another to suffer...
The veils opened...
😳 🥺 😳 🥺 😳 🥺 😳 🥺
On that day in September 2019, I committed to give up suffering.
I have been in recovery ever since.
I'm in recovery because
it's an ongoing process - to choose not to suffer and to choose to not to be the cause of another's suffering, day by day.
If you're interested in exploring some of the tactics I've used to flip my suffering, I'm preparing a blog post (and my new website... yayyyyy!!) on Suffering Recovery so as soon as it's ready, I'll let you know.
In the meantime, I pledge - that
my actions never cause you to suffer.