By Nita Johnson

NOLA Revival Services June, 2011

From last week:

John 1: 14 (AMP) And the Word (Christ) became flesh (human, incarnate) and tabernacled (fixed His tent of flesh, lived awhile) among us; and we [actually] saw His glory (His honor, His majesty), such glory as an only begotten son receives from his father, full of grace (favor, loving-kindness) and truth.

What does that mean? I just want to get you thinking, I did not know what it meant either until He came to me and let me experience what this means. He was full of glory. Not just full of glory like you can experience when you are overwhelmed with the Spirit—it was not like that. There was no sinful nature in Him, so His soul was permeated with the life of God, and you could not separate the Man Christ from God. Christ who was God; Christ who was the Son—they were One and could not be separated. There was no sinful nature. He was living Truth. He was the Word, but He was the living Word. Everything that went on inside of Him was the living Word. His character was the character of God; love, joy, peace, gentleness, goodness, kindness, mercy, compassion, and humility were the character of God. It was not like looking at someone who is a mature, humble and respected Christian and admiring them, or being a Christian with a lot of joy in His life so He must be doing something right in God. He is joyful and just always happy.

It was not like that. It was not human joy or happiness; it was Divine joy because He was God. It was Divine peace, Divine love, Divine humility, Divine meekness and of course all that is truth. He was the living Word full of grace and truth. How do you describe the grace? I do not know how, all we know is that the Bible tells us that when He spoke, He spoke with great grace and the grace would fall upon the people who would stand in awe of His Words. It was not human grace; it was Divine grace. He walked in Divine faith. It was the faith so high and absolute that He knew that anything He prayed, anything He said would come to pass because He had the faith of God which is a lot different than human faith and also, He lived in the matrix hub of the Godhead while on this earth. The reason I know all this is because the Lord let me experience it. I felt it. I felt how Christ, who was all man and all God lived in the center of the God Head all the time on earth. He did not know life quite the way we know it because the world was not connected to His soul.

You are not going to find out all that by studying the theology books. It has to come by Divine revelation. If you do not understand the Word, do what I do: ask Him to teach you and help you to understand what He is saying. If He teaches me, He will teach you. I can promise you that when He teaches you, your life will change. Why? His Words enter and begin the transformation of your soul. You cannot love the Lord with all of your mind, soul, and heart unless He does it in you. So, first is prayer, second the Word, third is a passion to die to all that is of the lower nature: pride, lust, covetousness, and jealousy. To die to the things of this world is passion. You must have a passion to die; if you don't, you will never make it through the death. It can only come with passion.

Someone once asked me to tell them about Melchizedek. I responded; when? Right now, they answered. I thought, there are almost 500 pages in that book and you'd like me to tell you 'now' about Melchizedek? I don't think that's possible. Well, you know—tell me what you can. Why? Well, because I want to impart it to my people. I said: You cannot impart Melchizedek. You have to die to get Melchizedek! Die? What is that? How long have you been a minister? About twenty years. And you do not know what ‘die’ is? But you know, the Charismatic thinking is to just go to service and get imparted, but you must die.

Everything in God is acquired by death and through death. You must mortify your soul. Do you know what it is like to be without pride? Of course, we don't, because we were born in it. The first time a baby throws a temper tantrum because it cannot get what it wants, it's pride. You do not know what it feels like to be without pride unless God gives you a Divine revelation and when He does, it is terrifying because you begin to realize how much pride is in you. Everything you gain in the Kingdom is not through fighting for life, existence, and your ways by demanding what you want. You die because you must, and it is the only way to remind us that the sinful nature must be crucified; you cannot just set is on a shelf. It must be crucified, and it can only be done through (1) prayer, (2) the Word, (3) fasting and (4) obedience. Obedience will never be easy because obedience to God is specially designed to crucify you, to force your dependency upon Him.

The crucified life is beautiful; the Word, prayer, fasting, obedience, love—a love for God and love for people. You think you love people so much and you do—until someone really hurts you again and again. Your heart is broken, re-broken and broken again. Love doesn't turn away when. Even if it seems impossible and you cry out for God; how can I endure? The answer is love; learning to love your enemies as you do Christ, and learning to love that one who is so much trouble.

I think about Mother Teresa and how she would look at the sick and dying. If you have never been to India, then you do not know how bad that is. I will never forget the first time I went to India where we stayed in a nice, beautiful luxury hotel. The next morning I get up and not too far from our 'luxury hotel' is the reality of the Indian streets. It was early in the morning when the sun just comes up, and you see people lying all over the streets. They get up and go about their day, come back and sleep on the streets. They filled the streets. I stood there in my luxury hotel room feeling so embarrassed from where I was staying as I looked out at the people of India. I came to realize that because of the caste system, the Indian people have so little regard for life. My heart was just broken. I stood there and wept... so little care for life.

Mother Teresa went out where no one else would go. She went to those lying on the street; diseased bodies raked with all kinds of stuff—filthy, stinky. No manners. Uncoupled, unkempt, unwanted and she would bring them into her hospital, and take care of them, with their open sores, wounds, and stench. Someone said: How can you do it? She said: Because upon every face I see the face of Jesus and I take care of them like I was taking care of my Lord. She loved them, and she loved them into the Kingdom. Love and faith, to achieve this, we must have a passion to die.

Let me share one more story. I had just gone through a very tough trial this particular day, and I decided to spend time in prayer until the pain was out of my heart. I did not know how long it would take, but I decided if I needed to stay up all night I would, I did not want the pain to remain in my heart. Sometime in the middle of the morning (I was still awake praying) I found myself in front of the cross. It was a long way off, but the cross was at the end of the path, and the Lord was along the side. I said to Him: Lord, I want to go to that place, I want to go to the cross, but my legs are like jelly. I am so scared of what lays ahead because crucifixion is so painful. I cannot make my legs move to complete the walk. The closer I got the harder it was and the more unstable my legs became. I mean, my legs were like jelly—imagine how you would feel if you were standing in Rome before the cross you were going to be crucified on. How do you think you would feel? My legs were like jelly, and I was crying because I know the only way to have Union is to go through that cross, but I know my legs are not strong enough—I cannot do it. I thought; okay, well I just have to lie down and crawl to the cross. I did not know what to do; the Lord was standing there and I was crying with a broken heart.
I wanted to please Him, make it, succeed in my quest for death, but I could not take the next step. I looked at Him with such desperation, and He said nothing (He can be silent at the worst times.) Finally, He stepped forward and said: I can help you, come, let Me put My arm around you, and I will help you walk. From that moment on, I knew that I could not do it alone, nor would I have to. I had to finish, He could not do it for me, but I would not have to do it alone. So, He put His arm around me, and my weight fell on Him. I felt strength come into my legs and heart and we began to walk toward the cross together.

This is why the Bible teaches that He double-yokes Himself with us to bring us to the death, that will get us through to Union. We cannot do it on our own, if we could then we would not need a Savior. So, I guess the first thing on your list needs to be Jesus. Remember what the Father says: you have never known passion until you have known the passion of your God. So great is His passion to bring you where He wants you to be. If you do not make it, it will never be His fault. It will be because you decided not to pay the price. If you will, you can walk with Jesus the way the Father walked with Jesus on this earth, and there is no other walk that compares.

In His Amazing Love,
Nita Johnson